Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Auld Lang Syne

So Christmas has passed. It was alright, can't complain. I did get one wonderful christmas surprise gift, a nice umbrella with a curved handle and the cane tip, ah I've always wanted one! I didn't even ask for it.

What else have I been up to...

Boston Legal. I just have to say I love that show. I'm just finishing up the fourth season, and the episode I watched last night was superb, I was leaking water all over the place.

Well to be fair I was already emotional. You see I started getting very nostalgic last night, and I really got to missing high school. I'm very fortunate to have made some wonderful memories for myself back then. I will always remember my solo sojourns to the store down the street at lunch and returning with a sandwich and a new kind of apple I had never tried. I would walk in the sparkling sun, yes it did sparkle in the spring, a beautiful view of Mt. Olympus before me, and I remember knowing at the time that I was extremely happy with my life in those moments.

I was playing a lot of old songs that I haven't played in a very long time last night, that was the catalyst. Rocky Mountain High, He Ain't Heavy (He's My Brother), Cripple Creek, Amazing Grace, songs from an era in my life that will always be a happy place in my mind.

I got to thinking about all my friends, and which ones have stuck with me all the way and which ones were truly the best. To be honest, there have never been a lot of people I've been truly close to, but I can say one of the very closest friends I hold near and dear is our very own Dan.

I desperately needed the stars last night, so I took a drive. You see we are surrounded by mountains here and in the winter they have a nasty habit of holding in all the pollution from the valley. So I drove to get above all that. It was a lovely drive up and down several canyons that dot the valley. A very good time to be had.

I have to say, this is turning into a New Year's Eve post, oh well, being a little early never hurt anyone.

This year, 2009, has been one of the biggest in my life. I cannot imagine where I would be had this year not occurred the way it did.

I met all of you wonderful people in the Spring of this year.

I've taken several solo Road trips that have refreshed the soul and cleared my mind.

I have been hired by a job, and subsequently quit that job.

I have made up with old friends, and made wonderful, fabulous, unfathomably awesome new friends.

I had the summer of a lifetime.

I have had sex, alcohol, rock and roll and Life.

I am now a living person, who is graciously flawed.

I am,


Wednesday, December 23, 2009


Sorry if the last post seemed a bit frantic. It sucked, but I got a B in the class anyway (lowest grade of College so far!), so between that and my two other grades posted (still missing two, and the other two grades are an A and A-), I'm feeling pretty good about this semester.

Now I'm on break.

Not feeling up to it tonight, but later I'll post more.

For now, it's Boston Legal time!


Thursday, December 17, 2009

Fuck fuck fuck

I hate this semester, it's been from hell.

Top it all off with the clusterfuck of a situation.

My paper isn't due this upcoming Monday like I thought, it's due three days ago.

Fuck fuck fuck.

And me like an oblivious idiot sends an email to my professor before I realize this asking if we can meet tomorrow to go over revisions. She sends an email back:

"Everyone turned their papers in on Monday. I have to have your paper tomorrow, bring me what you have."

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck sdafjkjsdfjkasdf;agnaeribaewfamiodfmkl;asd;agjiawegkafgajsdfajsdgasdgajkhsdfasd!@!@!@!@#!!@!!@!@!!@@!@!!@

I'm gonna go finish that goddamn paper and then cry myself to sleep.



Sunday, November 29, 2009

Holy Hell! Two posts not Weeks Away!

What's wrong with me?!

Well procrastinating a paper is part of the reason.

Also, Rufus Wainwright is my musical discovery of the week and I have no idea why I didn't know about him before. Good lord, wonderful musician. Good god I'm so gay... haha.

Yesterday I participated on a panel for a conference put on by the Pride Center for and about transgendered people called "Un(Packing) Gender." You see the month of November is Transgendered awareness month, celebrating the "T" in LGBT.

For those who don't know, Transgendered is when a persons gender does not match up with their biological sex and so they live out the gender that they feel more aligns with themselves. This means dressing and acting the part of the gender they chose and in some cases having surgery performed and undergoing hormone therapy to get their physical bodies in line.

So with that background in place, what is the opposite of transgendered?


This brings me back to the panel, which was entitled "Ask a Cis-gendered Person." I was one of those panelists who's gender has generally matched their sex. That is to say, I identify with being a man and have the physical sex of being one (replace man with woman for the ladies out there).

Being Cis-gendered carries a lot of privilege with it. For instance, you don't ever have to worry about what pronoun people will use for you ("he" "she"), it is generally assumed.

I was asked some questions about things I've never considered before. I would like to now open some of these questions up to you all, dear readers, to consider and answer, if you would like.

When did you first realize you were Cis-gendered? How did your friends and family react?

What do you like best about your gender?

Have you ever been confused for being the other gender? How did that make you feel?

Do you feel you have to overcompensate for any perceived lack of gender appropriate clothing? (i.e. if you don't dress masculine enough do you have to act more masculine?)

Just some food for though. Let's not forget the transgendered people in our community. They exist, they can be gay straight bi or queer as well, and they are often thrown under the bus when it comes to civil rights.

Have a good week ya'll,


Friday, November 27, 2009

This Song Has No Title

Well I'm back again.

I don't really know why I'm posting today but I am.

SO! What's new? Not much really to be honest. I'm just in survival mode at school getting through it all. Not that I'm having a great difficulty with it, but I just haven't been going on wild fantabulous adventures as of late.

Well here's something, I may be going on the wildest most fantabulous adventure of my life next year. You see my school is a part of a National Exchange Program that essentially allows students to go to another school for a semester or a year for in state tuition (i.e. Cheaply).

I recently met with the coordinator for the program. My ideal school, University of Washington is quite popular, and as such, they only take one or two people from my school every year. So the way my coordinator decides is based on who gets their application in first. No one has turned in an application yet, so if I turn one in first thing next week, I have a pretty good shot. However, the chance that it won't happen means that I have to pick some alternative schools.

One alternative that quite impressed me was St. Mary's College of Maryland. A nice private school, very open and accepting and academically it looks pretty sound. In addition to that, I'm also looking at the University of Minnesota, Twin Cities Campus, as it's like top 3 in the nation for LGBT friendly schools. I'm looking at several others (Hawaii is on the list as well, and apparently pretty easy to get into) but UW is my first choice.

Oh yeah, I chose a major finally. It's History! Hooray history! Also, as I'm pretty much done with general education requirements after this semester ends, I will be able to launch right into my major requirements. And before you ask, I won't be specializing in any particular type of history yet. That's for graduate school.

Umm... let's see...

Relationship status: stagnant as usual. Same reasons as before. Not too worried either.

Well, I've got to go work on a paper, so I'll see y'alls later.

Peace yo.


Wednesday, November 4, 2009

What do you want from me?

Ok, so I haven't posted in like 2 weeks.

And ok, I haven't been really reading too many blogs for longer than that...

But I've been busy ok?

Here's a laundry list of my activities since I last posted:

School: including reading, writing, and classes

Work: which has its ups and downs, but mostly downs.

Having sex: well... ok only once really... and I'm not really interested in the guy in a romantic sense...

Ok I guess I have to talk about that one in a bit more detail.

So like the week after I posted last was Fall Break, and some friends from the center and I went up to some local hot springs about an hour an a half away to camp out and then head home the next day. Well, one thing led to another and I ended up having sex with one of the guys that night. I'm not going to go into details, but suffice to say it was fun (ok fine pervs, I bottomed). The thing is so, I feel a bit guilty about the whole affair. I don't feel an attraction to the guy beyond the physical, and even that's not that great. Basically what happened was this: He was horny, I was wiling, there we go. I've basically gone on as if nothing happened. It hasn't been awkward, which is nice, but I'm just hoping he wasn't expecting anything more than what it was.

So yeah.

What else have I been up to?

Well... some more stuff I'm not exactly proud of, well, damnit, I had fun so it was worth it. I suppose I should let you in on this. I've been partying it up a bit lately, complete with drinking a bit. I have discovered that gin is my drink of choice though. The weekend before Halloween I went to a party and got quite smashed, I remember everything that happened, and I didn't get a hangover, but I'm not going to drink that much in the future. On the one hand I wonder if I'm compromising my values by drinking before I'm technically (read: legally) able to drink, but other the other hand I'm having fun and actually enjoying being young and stupid. I am careful though, and quite responsible, so don't worry too much.

Oh so I guess I should update you all on the Nick situation. We went on a second date, saw Zombieland and had sushi afterward. It was fun. Since then we haven't gone out and again, and things are pretty stagnant. At this point I'm too busy to care. My philosophy from here on out with him is this: If he wants me he can come get me, otherwise I'm moving on. I'm ok with this outcome, apparently he's a bit of a "butterfly" as a friend of mine put it, his interests floating from guy to guy constantly. So it goes.

On the other hand, I've been doing something new on Monday nights. My university has a group called "QSU" (Queer Student Union) that has meetings on Monday nights, and then coffee after that. I've been going for a few weeks now. I know many of those that go from the center so it's less awkward that way, in fact it's really fun and I look forward to it every week now. Through coffee I've solidified some friendships and made some new ones. It's feels great to be in a group of queers and just have a good time. Also, there's a guy there, Wyatt. He started going to QSU about the same time I did, and he's really cute and actually my age. I need to get to know him better I think. ;)

Whew... what else...

Went to the Rocky Horror Picture Show on Halloween at midnight. Fun stuff. If you get the chance go. I was anally raped by hundreds of people along with about 40 other people. We're no longer virgins. :D

Yeah other than that, lotta stuff in between all this but I can't remember it all right now. Suffice to say, I'm alive, been having a good time with life, and I'm going to try to be better about updating but no guarantees.

Well, I'm out of words.

No I'm not.

Happy birthday Landyn!!!

I feel really bad for missing the boat on his special secret blog, but I'm going to say something here just because I can, even if I already told him.

Landyn, you are awesome. You are made of awesome, which is a rare substance indeed. It took me a while to finally meet you, but when I did, it was worth it. I know I have a tendency to ramble, but I know you don't mind. Haha, what to say that hasn't been said already? Lemon Currey? No, those aren't the right words... Particulate matter? Damn, not right either... Well... You are beyond words, so I'll stop trying. I hope you have a wonderful birthday, you've made it this far, no small feat. You will make it much further. I only can hope that one of your future years brings your path across mine and that we can share a bite to eat or something. Me and everyone else I know. Ah well. Enjoy this day, you've earned it.

Ok that's really all. I've got work to do. So I'll see you when I see you.

The one who almost got away,


Sunday, October 11, 2009

National Coming Out Day!

Alright everyone, in honor of National Coming Out Day please leave a comment filling in the following blank:

National Coming Out Day: Because closets are for ________.

It'll be fun, trust me!

My answer, because it's the most obvious one,

National Coming Out Day: Because closets are for clothes.

Try it out everyone, be creative and unique!

Being out is fun,


Sunday, October 4, 2009

Toga toga toga!

Heh... It's been a while ain't it.

Sorry about that. I've been busy.

Update time!

So Monday. My date was fun with Nick, we have a lot in common actually (both played the same role in our senior shows in high school). We got to the theater about a half an hour early which gave us time to talk which was nice. It didn't really get awkward at all which is always nice. Then we got to our seats for the show. It was a good show (the 3rd time I'd seen it by then), and he seemed to be enjoy it as well. We would look over at each other in the funny parts and such. I also had some fruit mentos (i love those things) and so I would hand him some every now and then and he always gave me the cutest smile. Then after the show we walked out to the parking lot, and then he gave me a hug (not a very good one either (but he redeemed himself last night, but that's for later)) and I drove off and he drove away.

So that was my date. First one in over a year, and first one with a guy. Pretty good.

God this is going to be a long post I think, sorry, just prepare yourselves.

So the date was fun and all but now I don't know how to proceed. See I get the feeling he doesn't like clingy-ness and he said he always attracts crazy guys. Now I'm afraid that I'll be too clingy or too crazy. I don't know what the right levels are so I'm sorta paralyzed into no action. I don't think he knows I like him as much as I do either, but I've been sort of hiding it, or rather just not expressing it. Example, whenever we've been in the center, I'll talk to him or whatever, and then I'll go off and do something else, and then we'll talk for a while and I'll go off and talk to someone else or whatever. So basically I'm treating him like I would most other people. I dunno I'm over thinking this. I'm going to try a bit harder this week I think. Open and honest communication shall be my next tactic.

So anyway, yeah really busy week. I've just had a ton of school work to do and work on top of that makes it really hard to blog. I warned you all before that things may get busy, and they have, and I've been slack reading blogs, only reading a few here and there and I don't plan on catching up. Sorry :/

But now, to last night. I had work all day long at the theater. Well that's a lie, I had two shifts, the matinee and the evening, and I went shopping for new clothes in between, and I bought a really cute outfit, I'm proud of myself for that. Maybe I'll get some pictures up later. Who knows. (*Instantly knows what all the comments are going to say now (pics pics pics!!!)*) But yeah, I had to get an outfit together for that night. You see, this week is Pride Week at my University and there was an inter-collegiate dance last night. Well by the time I got there, only a handful of people were left, but apparently it was like that all night with people coming and going. Nick was there though, and he gave me a hug that mostly made up for the poor one last time, mostly. He still needs work haha.

Oh ok, here's another example of what I was talking about earlier. So this guy Ian asks me to dance (it was a slow dance), well being the friendly person I am, I said yes. Oh and Ian is fun, but not my type, so don't get ideas like that (I hope he's not getting those idea's either...) but I would have rather been dancing with Nick. I didn't really talk to him much either, which looking back I really should have.

But yeah, so that broke up about 45 minutes after I showed up, so then I went to get sushi with some friends from highschool. It wasn't that great of a time... I think I'm moving past them a bit. Oh well cause afterwards TOGA PARTY!

That's right, I went to a Toga party, and not one at some stupid frat house (it was actually at Ian's house, yes that Ian). My first real college party I guess you could say. All I'm going to say is that I'm kind of a lightweight, and the boy in just his underwear was hot!

And here we are at today. :)

Hopefully the next update won't be another week away,


Friday, September 25, 2009

It's back on!

Date's back on for monday! I'm getting excited again!

Battery about to die.

Updates later!


Wednesday, September 23, 2009


Well... Nick just called.

Looks like we're not going tonight after all. He has too much homework. I'm going to go still. I'm way bummed out though...

Although he was interested in going another time, so I'm going to have to figure out when to get my comp tickets.

I am disappoint.


Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Well... I got me a date!

So this is a bit late, but I've been busy ok!?

But yeah.

I asked him on Monday, and he said yes! And today I asked if he was still interested and he said yes quite enthused and excited like. :D

So yeah, my first date in over a year, and my first date with a guy. Although technically I haven't said "date" yet... :/ Hopefully I'm not making more of this than I should be...

But that aside I'm quite excited. The only thing I'm worried about is any awkward pauses in conversation. I get chocked up and nervous around him sometimes. Hopefully I'll keep my cool and not sweat too much.

Anyway, that's my big news. I'll let you know how things go tomorrow or thursday.

Excited and nervous,


Sunday, September 20, 2009

Nervous still...

Hey sorry for the little bitch fit in the last post. I understand you all read out there, but just don't usually have anything to say. Hell I'm really bad with comments myself.

So that's that. End of subject.

So yeah, I'm getting nervous about asking Nick out. I have never asked a guy out before. I've only ever asked one girl out, and not my ex either, she asked me out originally. I asked that girl out over a year ago. I don't know what to expect and as always I fear rejection. I hope to see him tomorrow though. Also should I plan an after activity such as ice cream or something like that to be able to sit and talk? Or should I just see what happens and not push it...

Gah. This is too much, and I'm over thinking it, and there are other thoughts in my head that are even sillier and so I'd rather not entertain them. I just don't know what to expect.

Any thoughts? Anything to say? Wanna tell me I'm a jerk?

Leave a comment!


Saturday, September 19, 2009


So I'd like to first off say thank you a whole tons to Jason for actually being the single person to comment on my last post.

I'm not gonna lie, a part of my soul dies when I don't get many (if any) comments, and it makes it hard to make another post.

But enough whining about that. I wanna say that Jason is a really cool guy whom I enjoy reading his very well written blog (like seriously, you've got a talent for blogging and writing in general (non-fiction at least, I haven't seen your fiction (if it exists)). Plus I enjoy talking to you on the msn as well. :D


I have not had the chance to ask Nick out yet. I didn't see him yesterday at the center. Mega bummer. But I still had fun there. I quite like being up there (it's on the fourth floor of the Union Building and has a killer view of the city). I also went to a BBQ for the volunteers tonight, but he wasn't there :/

Hopefully he'll be there on Monday. I think I'm starting to really like him...

Anyway, have a nice evening everyone.


Thursday, September 17, 2009

An Exercise in Futility

It is 5:40 AM as I write this. I was up until 3:00 AM previously. I have allowed myself 2 hours of sleep.

Fuckin' Papers.

Three and a half pages written, I need at least five or so. I'm nearing the end of my constructive rope. I am easily distracted as you can plainly see by this post. But this is a welcome and necessary break.

Another exercise in futility is going after logic boy. Facebook stalking had led me to believe that he is straight, and also a bit of a party-er, which is fine I suppose, but doesn't really mesh well with me, who isn't. It's hard to want to get over him when he's always soo freakin' gorgeous. *freak-out noises* Why does he have to be so gorgeous?

However, in light of trying to forget about logic boy, I think I'm going to actively pursue Nick, whom I know is gay, and think may be interested in me. Better choice? I think so. At the theater at which I work, the wednesday before opening weekend is "preview night" which is essentially a final dress rehearsal for an invited audience. As a supervisor and close personal friend of the house manager, I am one of those invited. I can also bring someone if I wish. Cheap date idea? Lemme know your thoughts.

Anyway, I should get back to the paper. Today is gonna be rough...


Monday, September 14, 2009


So I went to a concert tonight. Benny Green. Absolutely fandamntastic. Jesus can that man play the piano.

Went by myself as per usual. I didn't mind so much, but I couldn't help but think how it would have been better with a certain guy.

And no it's not the one your thinking of. But more on that later.

I was thinking about this guy Nick whom I've met through the center (LGBT Resource Center, hitherto now known as "the center"). He's older than me, like over 21 at the very least, and is graduating after one more semester. But he's pretty cute, gay, and single as I've found out today. I think I wrote about him before, but yeah. I kinda get the feeling he likes me too, but then again I'm new to all this (interacting with other guys that are gay). We'll see on that front.

As for Dusty (logic boy). He's still really really cute, but I keep getting the "he's gotta be straight" blues. I did talk to him briefly today, basically I asked if he had any problems with the homework, he didn't. I didn't either. End conversation. I barely got that in too as he was sitting a row behind me. Today was just not my day for seating. I'm starting to give up on him too, for the before mentioned reasons.

Oh and it rained today. :D I love the rain.

Well, that is all folks.


Saturday, September 12, 2009

Oh Hi There

So Yeah, it's been what? A week?

School's been kicking my ass, so has work, and I haven't really wanted to blog at school either. But here's what's been going on.

A quick comment about yesterday. I was going to post then, but I really didn't want to get into all the patriotic bullshit that goes along with it. I love this country sure, but I don't love what that event did to us. It made us fearful to point where we were willing to give up our rights to freedom for perceived safety. Even more disturbing to me is that it allowed us as a people to suspend our beliefs in justice. This is not uncommon to American History though. In World War II we had home grown concentration camps for the Japanese, because we were scared. We cannot let tragedy like 9-11 make us stop believing in what it means to be a freedom and justice loving society known as America.

That's all I have to say about that.

What else...

So I basically have no "freetime" during the week now. I say "freetime" because what I gave up was my fri, wed, and mon mornings to volunteer at the LGBT Resource Center we have on campus, which honestly hasn't been much work. It's actually been really cool to work there. I've met lots of people, and it's just a fun place to be. And yes there is one cute boy there, but he's older (like over 21), so not really a "boy" per say, but a cute guy. Oh and he's very gay haha.

Speaking of things gay, I have been addicted to a new (to me) musical. The Last Five Years tells the story of a husband and wife from the beginning of their relationship to the end, but here's the twist: the woman starts at the end of the relationship and moves to the beginning whereas the guy starts and the beginning at goes to the end. The juxtaposition of the two plot lines is really telling and the music is fabulous. Very simple orchestration and the singing isn't polished but it works. The score is eclectic in style and poignant in content (lyrically).

Oh yeah, I got a name too. :D

Logic Boy will now be known as... (fan fare and drumroll please).... Dusty!

or Dustin... or something like that... I didn't hear too well. The professor was passing back paper and he said his name. I should have heard better because he was right next to me.

Strike that ^^^^ His name is Dusty, I found him on the facebook :D

Oh yeah that's right, I finally got the seating issue worked out, at least for yesterday. It was really just luck though, and a bit of courage. As I was walking to class he comes out of the library and starts walking in front of me, and so I follow him to class. He sits down, there's a seat next to him. I almost didn't sit there, but I did!

So now I'm sitting next to him, what next? I asked him about the homework. We agreed it was pretty easy but shared reservations about the future as it may get more difficult. Then he started reading so I didn't want to interrupt, and class started. So during class we got to briefly discuss somethings with our neighbors and who's my neighbor? Hehe. I was gonna try to talk to him after class and see maybe, just maybe, if he wanted to get lunch or something, but he left pretty fast (he usually does) and I wasn't quite brave enough to approach him outside of class. But all in due time.

But he's really really cute. AH! He's amazing! :D I even got him to laugh a little and smile, which he doesn't do in class that I've seen.

Hopefully Monday will allow me to keep up, I'm hoping the initial conversation was enough to bridge some awkwardness. I'm wondering how to play seating though, do I wait a bit for him to show up first and then go sit next to him, or let him come to me? I dunno...

Wow this post is packed. Oh well. I've got a dinner party to clean up for. See my folks are out of town this week, and so what does a gay teenager do? Throw a rager? Naw. Host a dinner party instead. It's a Day by the Bay, fish and chips, clam chowder, cheddar biscuits, and grilled corn on the cob I think. It should be good. Gotta go shopping to get groceries though. Hopefully it'll be successful. I need to think of some music and something to wear...

Well until next time (which hopefully won't be too much longer)


I don't know if I've put this picture up before, but I have to say I love it so here it is again. Haha

Monday, September 7, 2009


Soooo much homework this weekend.

I'll probably post most tomorrow or wednesday.

Just lettin ya'lls know what's up.


Thursday, September 3, 2009


Oy, I'm tired tonight. But I shall attempt to make a post, no matter how disorganized. Here I go.

Having shaved legs is fun. I like touching them. :)

I'm not really being fair to fugly boy, he's just annoying me. I don't hold grudges for long. But I will be pissed off if he shafts me again tomorrow.

Tomorrow I may be going to a training thingy for the LGBT Resource Center on campus for volunteers. The only problem is it's from 11-12 pm and I have logic at 11:50 am. I think I'll be able to swing it. I figure volunteering for them will be a good way to meet people though. We'll see if I chicken out or not. :/

Also, yesterday they had what is known as "Plazafest." Basically all the clubs and organizations and departments and such set up booths and give away free stuff. Well I stopped by the LGBT booth and picked me up one of those lance armstrong-y type bracelets.

Picture :

It's lavender. What do you think? Too gay?

The other one is made with these really cool beads that fluoresce under UV Light (including the primary source, Sunlight). So they are all sorts of light blue, yellow, purple, and pink. Without light though, they are white, like in the picture. I'll try to get a picture of them when they are all colourful.

Again, too gay? Haha not that it matters, that's actually kinda why I'm wearing them.

Umm... anything else...

Oh yeah, Dan, where have you been on msn? I miss talking to you...

Oh yeah, last thursday marked our 4 years of knowing each other. Go us...

I just realized, Dan probably wouldn't make it this far in one of my posts...

Oh well :/

Good night everybody.


Wednesday, September 2, 2009

How do we (as homo's) do gender? UPDATE

So we were talking in my gender and sexuality class yesterday about how people "do gender." Like if you wanted to act as a girl, you would have to do much more than simply dress as one. You have to be a girl "120%" of the time, in actions and body language and such.

So my question comes down to this. Since a lot of gay stereotypes revolve around being "femmy" is this really a useful thing for finding other gay men? Or is it intended to attract straight guys who react to such cues?

Just a curious question.

It sounded better when I was thinking about it yesterday.

In other news, I shaved my legs.

Soooo smooooth.

Also, today is the day that I'm determined to talk to logic boy, so expect a name by this afternoon.

UPDATE: I=Failure. fugly boy (the guy who was sitting next to me last time) took up the two seats next to him. He had his pack in front of the seat next to him and his glasses on the desk. It pissed me off. So... no name. yet...

I think that's all.


P.S. another question (from a different class). From a standpoint, point of view, where do we (again as homo's) fit into society and how does that change our perceptions of it?

P.P.S Sorry for the deeper questions, but get used to them as I am once again in the world of Acadamia.

P.P.P.S. Is anyone else getting a notice that there is an unresponsive script on my page? I think it's one of my counters. I'm considering getting rid of it because of this. Let me know.

Monday, August 31, 2009


Once again I have failed when it comes to logic boy, who by the way has apparently broken his arm as he was wearing a cast.

However by far the biggest disappointment was this: he was talking to the guy next to him. Basically, if I had been able to sit next to him I would have had some interaction. But no, this ugly guy sits right next to me (literally, no courtesy seat or anything) and i'm stuck looking at the boy taking over my mind chatting it up with the guy next to him that should have been me. *Epic sad face*

On the other hand, this opens up opportunities for me, perhaps, if it's not too late. I just need to get to class after he does, and sit next to him. Hopefully he's not too buddy buddy with the guy he was talking to today or else if that has solidified I'm pretty much fucked. :/

Oh well. Wednesday is eagerly awaited.

By the way, this is officially my first post made and published away from home. I'm at the Union Building here at my university. Go me.

The guy who was dressed really cute today too,

Matt :(

Sunday, August 30, 2009

The One With the Cross-Dresser and Fun Times

So this weekend has been crazy.

On Friday I was all set to talk to logic boy. He comes in the room, looks like he's about to sit next to me again, and what does he do? Sits right directly behind me. Damnit. Needless to say a conversation would have been insanely awkward if I did make it, so I'm hoping for better luck tomorrow.

Saturday though, crazy day. In short, went out and about downtown with my friend Brent, with whom I go on my crazy adventures with. Well he see's his friend "Big Gay Tony," as he introduced him to me. haha wow what a character. Dressed like a girl, in leather bondage looking stuff. Hair that was huge and just. Wow. Really cool guy though, ended up hanging out with him the rest of the day. Went to the Pride Center here in Salt Lake for a bit. Omg, there was a boy there, Pablo, who was really cute. He was wearing really small shorts too which was just the icing on the cake. It was fun though, we all played cards and such and just hung out. Then we left and went to Tony's apartment (which he shares with his boyfriend) and it was really fun. There's more about other interesting people we met along the way but I can't be bothered to type it all. haha. sorry.

Today I made up (not out! pervs) with an friend with whom I've had sort of a falling out over the summer. We talked for a good 4-5 hours and we're on good terms now. Yay for reconciliation!

Well hopefully things will go well with Logic boy tomorrow.

Talk to you later folks,


Wednesday, August 26, 2009

The Beginning of Logic Boy

So Tuesday I mentioned something about a boy in my logic class. Well I had that class again today, and Oh My God. I think I'm falling in love. He walked in and immediately my heart went *boomph* right up into my throat. It stayed there while he walked over to my row and sat two desks away to my right. God he's wonderful.

I think I should probably try to talk to him Friday... haha yeah i'm falling for a boy i've never talked to, nor do I know his name. I dunno what to say though! Help me please!

Oh yeah somehting else kinda odd happened today. So I was in the Union Building lounging around on a couch perving at the cute boys walking around the job fair, when this random guy comes up and starts asking me about my guitar and what i'm reading and stuff. It was a really awkward conversation cause he didn't leave but didn't have much to say. Eventually he wanted to see my guitar (actually he wanted to play it too but I wasn't about to let a stranger touch my guitar). So I pulled it out and started playing a bit. Well then this chick comes up and is interested too. So I come up with the excuse "I've got to go eat lunch," and so I left and went downstairs to the food court. Who should I see?


I lost my appetite right there, I just wanted more of him...

Sigh, Friday is soon enough, yet so far away...


P.S. really, what should I say?!

Wild Raunchy College Sex

... in my mind...

Haha so classes have been going well. Yesterday was a looong day though. I got to campus and my first class was American History. Eh whatever, technically I could clep out of the class because I took AP Am His in high school, but I figured I like history enough to take it again. But also! There was a boy that came in and sat next to me. (by the way, as nice as that is, it's also obnoxious because you can't sit and perv at them unnoticed) I think he might have been checking me out too. Like he looked like he could potentially be gay. He was wearing shorts, a t-shirt and a button up vest unbuttoned. He was kinda cute too. I just sorta got "the vibe" from him though.

Next class, writing. I have had the professor before and she is wonderful (the whole reason for taking a class from her again). I'm quite excited because it will force me to write more, which I really do enjoy doing.

Finally I had a class in Gender and Sexuality. It looks like it's going to be an interesting class as well. But again, there was this boy. I could have sworn he was looking over at me and such. At one point, I uncrossed my legs and he did the same just after, haha I don't know what that means but take note! Anyway, I have another friend in that class who could act as a wingman if I wanted her to (in fact she's already suggested it).

It was a lot of running up and down campus though. I had 20 min. max in between classes that were on opposite sides of campus. Oy vey.

Also my course load looks like it will be pretty big, so I may have to stop reading blogs. I'll try not to stop posting because I like to do that, but reading others may become difficult as it does take a great deal of time. But fear not I shall warn you if that becomes the situation.

Well I'm off to Wednesday's classes. Bringing a guitar on the bus will be interesting...


Monday, August 24, 2009

It's Raining Boys

Oy I really shouldn't be up writing this but what the hell.

First day back to school. Awesome.

It's like a treasure trove of cute boys up there. Marvelous really. In my logic class (which may end up being a pain in my ass, math geeks I may be calling for help) there was this really cute boy, shaggy-ish hair brown, glasses, super cute. In my guitar class, there was a pretty cute boy, blonde, a bit more stylish. But good god, everywhere, they were everywhere. Cute boys wherever you look.

Don't have much else to say really. It's good to be back.


Sunday, August 23, 2009

Last day of summer...

was spent cleaning and rearranging my room.


Ah well it needed to be done.

12 years of being in the same room with the same arrangment and same clutter was a bit too long. So I got rid of a ton of stuff and moved my furniture around.

I like it so far.

School starts tomorrow though. :(

I don't know why I'm not excited for school like I usually am. (yeah I know I'm a nerd sometimes) However, when I went to buy books the other day (5 for $238, not too shabby)I got a cup of coffee and just sat outside the union building and enjoyed the view. I did feel nice to be there. I love the college campus. It's one of my favorite places in this city. I wish I could live there this year. Maybe in the spring... probably not though.

Oh well. Work is going to be scaled back starting this week as well. No more working mondays! Whoo! But that only means that I work from 2-9 or so on tuesdays. Blegh. The rest of the week isn't too bad, but still. Oh well.

Oh yeah! I bought a computer! It's in the mail. I hope it gets here soon. 13 inch Macbook Pro. Squwee! I'm so excited for it!

Well I think that's it. Hopefully I'll have time to blog during school with work and all that. We'll see how much I'll be able to.

Here's to a good school year!


Wednesday, August 19, 2009


Nothing to talk about really.

So random responses.

Torchy, a while back you said I should just get in there and talk to Jarret. It's not that simple. You see to get into that room, first of all you have to change shoes, or put on shoe covers. Then wash your hands. Then put on gloves, then a lab coat, and then you're good to go. Besides I don't really have much reason to be in there except Tuesdays and Fridays when I mop in there, but that's only after everyone has left. I rarely even see him in the halls because he's always in that lab.

Ethan, I said maybe pink maybe! Haha and so what if my socks are pink.

Why am I the only homo around here who knows his musicals? Even I'm not that good either, but sheesh guys. Do your homework.

Wow that was like a random very choosy comment reply, oh well.

Cute boy!

Oh by the way This is a pretty hep cat. Pretty cool guy so far, so check him out if you haven't yet. The mysterious "M"



Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Baadoop Ba doo wop diddy.

So not much to talk about.

Updated my links. If you've got a problem just lemme know.

Also, all my pointz belong to Ken from Adjusting Myself, who correctly answered my questions. The rest of you homo's got some s'plainin to do.

Um... not much else. Oh! I want to go buy a bunch of white no show socks (or the low cut or whatever they are) and dye them different colors. I like the low cut for how they fit and all that but the plain black and white are just soo boring. So here are the colors I would ideally love to have: lime green, yellow, baby blue, orange, red, regular type green, and hell maybe even pink. We'll see how the fabric dye suppliers can comply with my wishes. Oh and any advice would be appreciated.

I suppose I'll leave you today with some videos cause I got nothing else to post on...

Really weird and depressing, watch at your own risk!

A more upbeat song, gotta love Carole King!

Even more upbeat! Man he's good, and cute! Why is the southern hemisphere full of talented cute boys?

That's all folks!


Sunday, August 16, 2009

Match Maker Match Maker Make Me a Match…

So I had a completely awesome time yesterday.

Had to go to work for a few hours which wasn’t as bad as you would think because basically I was getting paid to just be there in case the contractors needed anything (they were doing work on the building). They didn’t need much.

Then I went clothes shopping with my friend Brent and this kid David (who’s only 15 but it seems like he’s much older) who’s from Brazil. That was fun, we stuck to thrift stores because they have weird stuff that’s cool. I bought a new shirt (maybe I’ll post of a picture of it). It’s a western style shirt and it’s pretty rad.

Then we decided to make dinner. So we went to the store and got the ingredients and here’s what we cooked. Jamaican Jerked Chicken (which I grilled perfectly (it was my first time grilling chicken)) with a rice pilaf with sautéed mushrooms and havarti cheese (really rich but sooo good) and grilled onions and red bell peppers. We also had a French baguette and some extra havarti cheese with grapes for an appetizer.

Then we went for coffee afterwards. There’s this cafe run by the Pride Center here and it’s actually a really cool place so that’s where we went. Talked with some random people, laughed a lot, had a good time. Then I drove David home and Brent and I went to go have a fire in my fire pit in my backyard.

All in all a good day.

Oh yeah, my title. Brent said that his girlfriend knew a guy (named Jake) who she might be able to hook me up with. And he said another person he knew knew someone who could possibly be hooked up with me. Point being, I may be getting hooked up soon. *Squee!*

Oh and 150 points to whomever can tell me what musical that title is from.

And additional 200 points will be awarded to the person who can tell me which character is the “matchmaker.”


Sorry is my gay showing?



Thursday, August 13, 2009

I've Died and Gone To Retro Geek Heaven.

So I'm sitting here on my 5 yr old laptop, using the 10 yr old internet, playing on my gameboy color from the 1990s (the purply kind that are see through), listening to my record player that's decades old technology (although i have to get up and flip it over now... grr) all while txting on a year old phone.

Life is good.


Wednesday, August 12, 2009

What a Night

So things were going well tonight. Work was fine. I was in the building where Jarret wasn't so my perv levels were able to return to normal. Oy vey, he's gorgeous. Got off, went to a friends Mission Call opening (Mormon thing, don't worry about it). Went and had coffee with my friend Matt, whom I told about Jarret. Didn't talk about everything I wanted to with him (talked a lot about work though, Oy) but it was nice anyway.

Then went to the store. That's when things went, awry.

Car battery was dead when we returned to the car, so we push started it, which worked for all of 500 yds at the most then the engine would cut out like it was gonna die and then bust back into life. Well I drove up into a neighborhood near by and drove around hoping the engine would just pop back into full life. Well it didn't. It died.

I know exactly what's wrong. The alternator is bad. I was going to call on getting it replaced tomorrow (thank god for lifetime warrentee's (sp?)) but now the car is in a neighborhood miles away. I'll probably have to get it towed to the autoshop. It didn't help that its a fairly upscale neighborhood and the people around probably didn't appreciate teenagers hanging around casing their joints. My dad finally picked me up and I'll have to deal with it in the morning.

Plus I have to go to work earlier tomorrow. Plus my internet was being incredibly dumb earlier.

However, I have my Carole King record spinning on the turntable and I am calm and sedated now.

God what a night.


Dream – Dream Boy

So I had and remembered a disturbing dream this morning.

I was in a hotel room and every night two people were killed, and somehow i was able to see a scene from the slayings and it was always of blood and bleach being mixed into a big graduated cylinder. But when they surveyed the rooms afterward there were these huge messes. And I remember they got one of my friends and her mom and it was a most horrible scene.

It was the closest thing I've had to a nightmare in a while, but wasn't really terrifying so much as disturbing as they didn't come after me at all.

Hmm... :/ Oh well.

Next order of business, Dream Boy. Well actually his name is Jarret. He works at my work. He's fairly new. We have this lab that has all theses windows looking into it from the hallway which i travel through fairly frequently, he works in this lab. When I say frequently I mean like constantly, all day, everyday. He's not usually what I go for, but man is he sexy. Reddish blond hair that's just a perfect shag, he's stylish, really sexy legs (and I'm not all that into legs) and a really hot body. Like drool.

It's getting to be a problem though, I'm like obsessed with passing by that lab. I have to catch a peek whenever I can and sometimes I have to just look away so I don't seem creepy or anything.

And omg! The other day he was laughing and smiling at what I presume was a funny conversation in the lab and as I walk by he turns and looks at me with the smile still on his face. Omg I almost lost it. I had to keep all my composer until I was out of sight where I just beemed and giggled a little. God I'm such a girl sometimes. haha.

Then there was the time I was in that lab watching the repair men that were in there, and Jarret walks in to do some stuff, and I just kept perving on him. Finally he left, and I just sat and day dreamed about... compromising situations with said employee...

Haha well I hope you enjoyed this random here's how things are post. I quite enjoy doing these. And because I haven't in a while.


Cute Boys!


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Top Left: Look at that beautiful hair. Top Right: haha I dunno why but I just enjoy the picture. Bottom: Awww sweeetums.

Hell they all had amazing hair, Mboy you’re welcome.


Oh and thanks for the comments on the look of the blog. Yes it is very white, yes I did sorta subconsciously copy you Dan (but I have a header picture dammit!) and I’m sorry if it hurts anyone’s eyes. In looking for a new layout I became frustrated when I couldn’t fine what I wanted (cause i honestly didn’t really know) I just went for simplicity. Here you go.



Off to enjoy another day as a working class citizen, oh joy.



P.S. I’m probably gonna get a new computer soon! Squee! So maybe expect some cool new content eventually.

Monday, August 10, 2009

100 - Yippee Skippy

So here I am, post number 100.

Perhaps this little break that i've taken will help restore my blogging mojo.

Oh yeah, notice anything different?

New layout! Hooray!

What do you all think of it?

I think I'll get back to regular morning posts starting tomorrow. We'll see.

I think that's about it for this post.

Haha wow I thought i was gonna do something special...

oh well.


Tuesday, August 4, 2009

What About Bob - The Finale

Ok here's the last of the questions answered. Thanks again to Bob for sending all these! :D

61. If you had a message to live share with the world what would it be? Don't let this whole living thing get to you. Somethings you have to take seriously, like a job, not like work, but a task. When you have a task to complete take it seriously, but everything else? Naw, it's not all that important.

62. Name two qualities of character you possess? A good work ethic and compassion.

63. Name two qualitites of character you admire in others? A good work ethic and compassion. haha. I hate it when people are too lazy to jump in and help when something needs to be done.

64. I have read you are an agnostic now and I believe that is a reasonable belief to hold though not one I share, would you like to explain why it is you believe God doesn't exist? Whoa whoa, I never have claimed that. I believe somethings are simply beyond human comprehension, God included. Perhaps there is a God, but one I can worship? Or need to? Maybe not. I'm not going to spend my life worrying about God and all that. That being said, I dislike militant atheism as much as I dislike militant theism. It's all the same. I believe in the absurdity of life.

65. What do you want your readers to understand about you from your blog? I dunno, whatever they want to. I'm an open book (with a few sticky pages).

66. Would you like to adopt children in the future? Well I would like to yeah, but it would depend on who I choose to go through life with as well.

67. Do you believe there is a stereotypical gay person? Well yes. In fact, his name is George and he lives at 432 E. Winchester Road Memphis Tennessee. He's quite the flamer, they keep having to fix his wrist and put out his house because his track lighting lights the elaborate lace curtains on fire.

68. Do you believe the media still portrays gays in a stereotypical manner? Well the news papers generally don't from what I can see and I never watch T.V. news so I can't comment on that too much.

69. What do you think a person your age can do to support gay rights and groups if htey are closeted? Get some liberal friends, then it won't seem so odd. Lol.

70. If I visited Utah where would you suggest a blogger would want to go and see? Downtown Salt Lake City, wonderful little city, well it will be when the goddamn construction gets finished.

71. If you left Utah where would you want to go live and why? Well it changes all the time, but currently Seattle Washington because I like the ocean, and the mountains, and the rain and guess what? It seems to have that all pretty close.

72. What makes Utah a great place to live? The wilderness just at our back porch. Seriously, I can be in complete wilderness in less than an hour. It's amazing like that.

73. What makes Utah a bad place to live? The Utah Legislature.

74. In general how are gays treated in society in Utah? It seems as if we've made a bit of a niche for ourselves. There are still strongholds of ignorance and bigotry (see The Church and the Utah Legislature (often confused as the same thing lol)), but they are cracking. I hope.

75. Gay Marriage or Civil Unions where are you on this issue and what if anything does Utah have to allow gay partners to be recognized? Civil Unions are a nice start, but according to US law it's gotta be Marriage. 14th Amendment, separate but equal is not acceptable. That's it in a nutshell. In Utah certain municipalities allow partners to register for a benefits registry that's sorta a pseudo civil union.

76. Is it safe to be out as a gay person in Utah? Well as personal safety is concerned, I would say so.

77. The Mormon Church Officials run the state of UTah basically is what I have, is that true in your opinion? They do have a great deal of power, but to say they run the place is a bit out there.

78. What is your opinion if any about a democratic political system being run or heavily influenced by a sole church? It doesn't work. Gotta protect that minority! :D

79. If you know what is the Mormon position on gays and is different than other religions that you are aware of? Well as a disclaimer, I am not Mormon and so I can't know for certain but I believe the general idea is that as long as you remain celebate you're sorta ok. But then if you can overcome your homosexuality (*cue eye rolling here*) then you can marry and have kids and be a good mormon. I think the celebicy part is common to a lot of churches though.

Ok Cheeky time, young un's turn away!

80. Ever had sex with a large stuffed animal? Hmm... can't say that I have *cough cough cough*

81. Who was your first crush on and when was it? In elementary school I had the biggest crush on this girl named Wendy. Whoo...

82. Did you taste it? Umm... sure.

83. When you are looking at a guy what do you check out first? Face quickly followed by shoes.

84. What turns you off in another? haha bad shoes.

85. What if anything is an immediate visual turn on to you in another? Nudity? sure that sounds reasonable.

86. Ok do you enjoy wanking to pictures, videos, or memories? Both, and do fantasies count? If so then those too.

87. Have you ever been naked in public, where, when and why? Nope :/

88. Strangest place you have ever wanked? In my car going 80 MPH on Highway 89.

89. Most number of times in a day you have wanked? 6.

90. If you could choose anyone who would you like to be in a porn movie with? Just one? and I'll just assume porn stars here. Umm... Tommy Anders and Jesse Star. Let's go with them two.

91. Do you have a fetish? Shoes.

92. Where is his favorite place to jerk off? New and exciting places.

93. Does Matt jerk off everyday? Almost every day yeah.

94. I read that Matt only uses his right hand to jerk off but what would Matt do if he broke his right hand to relieve himself? First of all , that is simply lies and slander, I treat both hands equally in the fun that is wanking.

95. Has anyone else ever touched Matt's member, and who was it? Yes, my cousin. Yeah yeah weird fuck I am, but it was years ago and we were both young and curious.

96. Have you ever dated anyone and give details? Yes I have had one relationship in my life. Details are in an early post entitled "Tired of Being Alone"

Whoo all done.

Now I have to do something special for post 100!

... shit

I have no idea what to do! Comment and let me know! Cause I won't make another post until I get a good idea.



P.S. Posted earlier today, go check it out.

Update On Coming Out

So I'm sorry I kinda left you all hanging. It's just that I've told this story many times over to people on msn and such and so I just didn't want to bother writing it again for here.

So I'm going to copy it from a conversation I had. Haha.

so yesterday
i got the idea to come out stuck in my mind
so i eventually told my mom
and she was asking things like are you sure? how do you know? have you ever been with a guy? stuff like that
well we talked for a little and then went our seperate ways
well i guess she took it a lot harder than she was leading on
sorry msn was being dumb
she basically broke down when my dad got home i guess, i was down in my room the whole time
and so my dad comes down to talk to me and he's close to tears which is weird cause i've never seen him like that, but he's like try to act normal around the family tonight
oh yeah
great timing on my part
my family was coming over for a birthday bbq for me
so i say sure
well my mom got all boozed up as the evening went on, and she told my aunt and my other uncle and who knows who else
which i guess was alright because it saves me the hassle of having to do it
but anyway
my aunt talked to me for a while
she was really supportive and awesome
i'm a bit pissed at my mom for being so childish and drinking her problems away and my dad, eh i dunno
but i think they really over reacted cause it's not like i'm any different
they should be happy that i shared something for once lol
but yeah today i've kinda just avoided them and i'm holed up in my room
but yeah that's about it
i'm making a quilt out of old t-shirts now

The quilt from t-shirts I'm still working on as I have forgotten how to sew.

But yeah that's what happened in a nutshell.

And that was from yesterday, so today I got home and my mom is acting as if nothing happened, which is good i guess because so am I.

But yeah that's that.


P.S. I'll be working on the final set of questions right after I post this, and then I'll post that, so be sure to read and comment on both of them, kthxbai!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Ah Fuck

Goddamn I have a way with timing.

Told my mom today.

She put on a brave face.

She told my dad.

He kept his brave face, but it was cracking.

Both are really upset though I can tell.

It would be a whole lot better if I could stay holed up in my room until tomorrow, but nOooOooo I had to tell her on the day that we have the family over for a BBQ. Jesus Christ I'm good!

This is gonna be awkward I can already tell.

Shit shit shit, what the hell did I do.

Oh well.

Come what may.

It's time to start living.



Saturday, August 1, 2009

Oh yeah....

*shuffle shuffle*

Oh hi there.

I guess it was pointed out to me that I forgot to mention that yesterday (July 31st) was my birthday. Whoops.

I'm 19, yay me!

Questions will be finished later today. Going to the thrift store now :D


Thursday, July 30, 2009

What about Bob Pt 4

Ok more questions!

Oh and no work tomorrow, yay! And hopefully all my plans work out nicely. :D

26. Experiences if done or experienced any of the following questions please described the how, what, why, when or the where of it, if multiple occurrences have occurred simply discuss them in general and why you enjoy doing it or what occurred.
a. Been skinny dipping? nope
b. Best place been in life and why? I can't do bests and favorites. Here are some top contenders though. A beach in Cabo San Lucas Mexico with the blood red moon rising above the ocean horizon; Lake Lucern in Switzerland, god it's gorgeous there; the bonneville bench above the Salt Lake valley on a cold winter night with a million stars struggling to be seen in the city lights. The bow of a cruise boat in the Caribbean with the moonlight above and the wind rushing through my hair. Moonlight seems to show up a bit don't it? Haha I like the moon. It's magical really.
c. Worst place you have been to in life and why? I can't say that I've been to somewhere i've really loathed sorry.
d. Place you want to visit and why? New Zealand, I've heard it's beautiful. I'll have to go on a full moon too. That would be sooooo awesome.
e. Worst experience you have had in life? Perhaps the mental paralysis I experienced earlier this spring. Man it was horrible. Or perhaps the one time I got really really sick and I was just laying on the couch touching my fingers together to see if they were still there and had feeling. I was having existential thoughts about how the world was really a sham and there was no meaning, I was really wacky.
f. Best experience you have had in life? Anytime I can travel :D
g. Best thing that has been done for you by another? Reach out to me. Anytime someone makes the effort to reach out to me it makes me feel wanted loved and it's the best feeling. Unfortunately it doesn't happen much :/
h. Worst thing you have done to another? Perhaps I can be a bit of an ass to people that i'm comfortable with and some people i just am an ass to and I don't know why...
i. What wouldI do with you and your friends on a Friday night? Well it depends on the friends i'm with, but lately it would be wandering around downtown SLC.
j. What is the worst Matt has been drunk before? The most I've ever had to drink in one night has been a few sips of a few drinks. I don't drink.
K. Has Matt ever been arrested? Only in the gaze of a beautiful boy :P

Ok I'll admit for these next questions, I'm a bit of a clothes horse. hehe

27. What is your favorite type of clothes you like to wear? Well I try to be stylish when I can, so I suppose any outfit that I think goes well together is what I like. I do enjoy formal wear as well.

28. Favorite designer or manufacturer you like to wear? Hmm... well I do enjoy American Eagle. I like their fabrics and they always have wonderful bright rich colors.

29. Favorite foot wear? Well right now I love my Birkenstock clogs lol I am a hippie after all. Other than that I like Teva Sandals. Sneakerwise, I like anything sleek and with a low profile. Dress shoes, patent leather oxfords. Rubber soles FTL!! All leather baby.

30. Do you prefer to wear boxers, briefs or do you go commando? I do enjoy boxers, but I also enjoy boxer briefs. I haven't gotten myself a pair of briefs yet, haven't found any sexy ones i like yet lol.

31. Favorite item of clothing you own and why? Well I suppose it could be one of my hats. I have a few hats that I really like. My favorite two are my pub cap I got in London, it's green with a herringbone pattern and is all wool. Then there is my checkered fedora, it has an feather in it from a hat I got in Austria.

32. What clothing do you sleep in, if any? Well usually just athletic type shorts or nothing.

33. Book you want to read that you haven't yet? There are many, but let's go with... Ulysses by James Joyce.

34. Favorite movie that you've seen? Dan in Real Life. Love it. Recently I saw Stand By Me, it was really good. Even more recently I saw Up, man I cried a lot in that movie. lol

35. Movie you want to see that you haven't yet? Shawshank Redemption (sorry Dan!)

36. Favorite video game you have played? I'll list a few of the best. Morrowind, Oblivion, Fallout 3, Chrono Trigger, Banjo Kazooie, Pokemon, and The Sims.

37. Video game you want to play that you haven't yet? None right now that I can think of.

38. Explain to me what is it about these video games that makes you want to play them? They are fun. What can I say. I also love the story in many of them.

39. If your house was on fire, what five possessions would you grab before running out? 1. guitars 2. laptop 3. hats 4. a bandanna 5. My camera (so I could take pictures of the fire and aftermath)

40. What is your most prized possession? I don't put too much attachment value to objects. So I don't really prize possessions much. But if I had to pick, it would be a guitar of mine.

41. If you could go on anywhere in the world for a visit where would you want to fly to? and Why? Just one place? aww man... lets go with the Fjords of Finland :D Cause they are cool.

42. And separately what amusement park in the world would you like to travel to? I've heard Thorpe park is nice, but Cedar point wins my vote.

43. Do you have a middle name and if so what is it? I do and it's the same as what you call someone of one of the major three religions in the world :D

44. Has Matt broken any bones and so which ones? Nope never, not so much as a cavity or surgery :D

45. Does Matt have a nickname and if so what is it? I have several but they are plays off my last name and I don't want to reveal that yet.

46. What sports does Matt like? I like skiing, fencing, sailing, football (American) soccer, badminton, whatever it's cool.

47. What kind of sports did or does Matt play growing up and now? Not many that what kind lol.

48. What is the worst thing Matt has done to anyone else in his life in Matt's opinion? Push people away? I dunno I don't really do horrible things...

49. Whats the most embarrassing thing that someone has done to Matt? Hmm... perhaps there was the time that I was pantsed in the hotel swimming pool by my friends. They took my suit left me naked in the pool and then played keep away with it.

50. Matt, named teh five nicest things you have ever received in Life? Kindness, love, acceptance, hugs, kisses, and a hat.

Other than Dan for these questions but you should give him some credit :) (Dan there's your credit)

51. Who was the first blogger you emailed? Oh gosh... hmm...oh right it was Mboy. Well actually i think it was a response to Bob first.

52. Who was the first blogger to email you after you began blogging? Bob!

53. Who was teh first blogger you contacted on MSN? Maybe Bob or Mboy.

54. Who was teh first blogger who contacted you on MSN? See above?

55. What has been the best thing about blogging for you? All of you!!

56. Do you like sunsets or sunrises better and why? Sunsets, more romantic, and I'm never up for the sunrise.

57. Do you like staring at the stars at night and why? It's one of my favorite thigns to do! I like getting lost in the immensity of it all.

58. Would you rather swim in the ocean or a pool and why? A mountain lake! Because they are soooo cold!

59. Thunder or lighting, why? Lighting, cause it's prettyful.

60. Storms or sunshine and why? Storms cause I love a rainy night such a beautiful sight.

I'll leave you for tonight with that.

Hopefully I'll have time tomorrow to finish all these questions. Maybe in between my declarations of ever changing life!

Until tomorrow,


Wednesday, July 29, 2009

What About Bob Pt 3

Oy this one is coming in late, things are getting busy here at the Matt station.

It's getting last though and I have to get up fairly early so I'm going to just jump right in with the questions.

10. What does Matt want to do when he grows up?
Oh god I have no idea. Lawyer, Teacher, Sound Engineer, Stay at Home Dad, Professional Musician, Historian, Philosopher, it changes every week!

11. What does Matt want to study at College?
See above answer.

12. What thing or activity, do you enjoy doing or participating more than anything else in your life?
Simply living my good man, simply living.

13. What is your favorite band, and why?
I can't pick a favorite, because it changes all the time. Lately I have been listening to a lot of Neil Young though. I like him because of his diverse range and his wonderfully potent lyrics.

14. What is your favorite CD or record, and why?
Well no CD is favorited, but oddly enough I do have a favorite record. Tapestry by Carole King. I just love that album.

15. What song do you sing in the shower?
Usually jazz numbers. Or songs from musicals. Basically those song where I can really belt it out and have a great time.

16. College plans when you first started this blog you talk about going to the U of Washington, what is happening and with you college career and where are you attending school next year?
Well I think Washington is a bust as of now, so I'll be staying at the U for a while longer!

17. Camping what piece of advice do you have for novice campers and what one piece of equipment do you always bring camping?
Don't over pack. You don't need all that. I always bring a bandanna, most useful item out in the wilderness for most situations.

18. Where is Matt happier in the woods hiking or on the lake sailing?
In the woods. I just don't sail that much anymore. But there are magical moments with each so I can't say for certain.

19. Do you still consider yourself a hippie and if yes why?
Well I'm a hippie that cuts my hair and dresses pretty square at times, but yes I am a hippie. I believe in the power of love and the ideals that the good hippies strove for. Peace and love man, peace and love.

20. What is your favorite food?
Italian. Pretty much. Love pasta.

21. What are your favorite home cooked meals for breakfast, lunch and dinner?
Breakfast: Breakfast burrito, I make a mean one. Lunch: Ham Brie and Apple sandwhich, delicious. Dinner: Pesto Pasta with sauteed Bell Pepper Mushroom and Onion. I make all those dishes myself.

22. Favorite Icecream?
Ben and Jerry's Cherry Garcia, hands down.

23. Who is your favorite actor?
Oh there you are with favorites again... wait a minute... lol. Steve Carrell perhaps is my favorite.

24. Who is the cutest actor?
Oh gosh I dunno. Devon Werkheiser is pretty cute though (Dan ;D)

25. Do you have a favorite website to collect all the cute boy pics you have?
Hmm... well bambiboys.com is a pretty nice one I s'pose.

Ok I'm actually quite tired now, and should really go to bed, so this is where I end tonight. Hopefully more tomorrow morning!

G'night all.


Tuesday, July 28, 2009

What About Bob Pt 2

More questions!

By the way, if you have any additional questions that you would like answered feel free to ask whatever you like, although I know most of you are sick of these, so I'm not expecting them. However if there is something you would like to know, please ask!

Oh and yesterday was a long ass day (haha i'm writing in the past tense although this is the night of the day that i wrote this which is yesterday but really today, confusing much? haha don't worry about it, none of that made sense to me either). I hope today won't be as bad.

Questions! I'm gonna try to get most of these multi-part questions out of the way now.

2. Tell us a little something about New Zealand, the type of place where you live in general is it a city rural, suburb and something you like about where you live?

Haha oh Bob, not scanning your questions before you shoot them off. I'm answering anyway! Lord of the Rings was largely shot in New Zealand. I live in the suburbs, and I like it because there is nature only 15 minutes away. Lovely!

3. What do you feel is the most important decision you will make:
a. This week: What to do for my birthday!
b. Next Year: What to pick for a major. Eep!
c. In the Next Ten Years: I can't think that far in the future...
d. In your whole life: Finding someone to love and that someone to love me too.

4. Your biggest concern in life about:
a. another person you know in real life is? I dunno, that everything will work out right for everyone I know? It's hard to say.
b. any other person is? Same answer :/
c. any event that has recently occurred is? Well it happened last fall but the decimation of the Common Ground Initiative by the Utah Legislature sure pissed me off. The threat of being fired because I'm gay is still alive and well in Utah.
d. Any war. Did I mention I'm a bit of a hippie? :P

5. We all that a lot of blogs are but few of the readers consistently comment on blogs
a. How do you feel about the number of coments you are receiving on your posts? Well I won't lie, I see people getting over 10 comments per post and that makes me quite jealous. I want more like everyone. Sheer number wise that is.
b. How do you feel about those you comment of your blog? Well I have to say I'm glad that you folks are out there commenting, which makes me really happy. I just wish sometimes you made your comments a bit longer lol, I guess I can't always get what I want :p haha.
c. Do you comment on the blogs you read a lot, why or why not? Well I try to, honestly I do, but sometimes it's hard. Especially when I've been gone a while. I usually don't make up comments i've missed. When you do get a comment from me, they are generally fairly lengthy, so I guess that makes up for the sparse numbers. If you want me to comment more, just email me so that you want them, and I probably will!
d. Do you block, delete, or moderate your comments in any way, including disallowing anonymous comments why or why not? Well considering I don't have to deal with anonymous commenters much, if at all, they don't bother me lol. I wouldn't want to delete comments or anything like that though, too much like censorship. That being said, I haven't ever gotten a mean comment so who knows how i'll react then.

6. You started a blog last April I believe (and you believe correctly!)
a. Have any major changes related to your blogging occured in your life since beginning to blog, that you want to share with us? Well... I can't really blog as much now that I've got a job. Plus I've lost a bit of anonymity since I started so I have to be a bit more careful in what I write about.
b. Is there a message you are trying to tell us through your blog? Not intentionally. However things you may be picking up on include the following: the absurdity of life, i'm gay, i like photography, don't make the mistakes I do.
c. Do you blog at a certain time of day? Well it's either in the mornings or the nigh time.
d. What do you think of anonymous commentators in general, should they be allowed? WEll sure, everyone has a voice. And besides, we've all started blogging with our anonymity in mind, why can't people comment with that same desire? Just don't be an asshole anonymously.

7. Photography it appears you love to take pictures and some of them are stunning btw (why thank you, thank you much), but:

a. What do you enjoy taking pictures of the most? Anything peculiar odd or different.
b. What kind of camera do you use? An old Nikon Coolpix 4600 I got years ago as a gift for my trip to Europe.
c. What is more enjoyable to you photography or music? Music. Pictures are cool, but they don't stir up my emotions like music does.

8. You write songs, play several instruments and seem to have a real understanding and love of music:

a. Who or what inspired you into music? I dunno, music did. I heard it, and wanted to be able to do it myself, so here I am.
b. What is your favorite instrument to play? The Guitar. It's what i'm most proficient in and so I can have more fun playing it. When I get up to speed on other instruments I may enjoy them more.
c. What is the subject matter of the song you most enjoy that you have written? Well I have enjoyed many of the songs that I've written. So I can't pick a favorite. Generally my songs have been about letting go of inhibitions, something I wish I could do easier.
d. Who is a better audience trees or people? Hahaha, well... that's a tough one. I would have to say people though. Even if they are ignoring you some of the time, when they listen you know, trees ignore you all of the time, or when they do listen, you're none the wiser.
e. Will you ever post you singing one of your songs on your blog? Well if I ever get some proper recording equipment, I may just do that. I want to share with you folk, but I am limited by technology or the lack thereof. Soon hopefully though!

9. Internet use
a. How many hours a day are you on the net on average? I've never really counted them out, but a lot I'm sure. If I had to guess, maybe 5-7 hours a day? maybe?
b. Can you break that down by time on blogs, MSN and other activities? No, because I have no idea. I'm pretty much always on MSN though, if I'm on the internet I'm on MSN.
c. Can you imagine life without the internet? No. Because such a life has never existed for me. It's the same problem I have with people complaining about gas prices. To me $3 a gallon is normal. When people say that $1 was the average and normal, that means nothing to me because that doesn't fit within my mind's capacity to imagine what I've not experience in some form or another. So to return to the internet, as long as I can remember there has been the internet so I can't possibly imagine a world without it.

Good god that was long. Hopefully the questions will be a bit shorter than those in the future.

Oh and here is your cutie Dan for making it this far.

Monday, July 27, 2009

What about Bob Pt. 1

So today I am going to start answering all of Bob's infamously lengthy list of questions. However I realize that I have no interest in doing them all at once, nor do you have interest in reading them all at once. So I will be posting everyday this week with some answers and whatever else is going on in my life (and a cute boy picture for Dan at the end
of everyone).

So without further ado, here is the first set of questions!

1. Matt I would like to get a few basics about what you look like for those of us who have never met you so :

a. What color eyes ands hair (ok before it was pink) do you have?

My hair is blond (never been pink lol and no I'm not going to edit the questions) and my eyes are "hazel" in that they change from blue to green depending on my outfit.

b. What is your height and weight?

I am 5'11'' (~180 cm) and about 150-160 lbs (68-72 kg).

b. how would you describe your skin color?

White. Well it's tan now thanks to the river :D

c. Do you have any identifying marks on you?

Not particularly. I have an odd birthmark thingy on my tummy below my belly button but it's tiny and no one ever sees it.

d. Do you have any other scars and would you share how you got them


I used to have several scars but they have all faded now. (Unless you count what the doctor did to my wee wee when I was but a wee wee), but i used to have an awesome pirate scar on my left arm, I got it running into this thing sticking out of a cart in a toys-r-us.

e. Is your six pack visible to others?

Bwahaahaha. What six pack? Oh the one under the keg? Oh... nope.

f. What do others think is your best physical aspect?

I dunno...

g. What do you think your best physical aspect is?

My facial profile. Haha. I like looking at my face in profile rather than head on. I dunno.

h. Do you have dimples, if so how many?

I guess when I smile I do...

i. Do you have freckles?

Not really

j. How is your tan line looking?

Pretty farmerish, but it's good. Thank you river!

k. how do you keep your self so skinny, we have all seen the body shot :)

I don't do anything really. Body takes care of it. But I have started doing crunches in the morning. So hopefully that will help drain the keg so I can bring out the six pack.

Ok that's all for questions for today!

Cute boys!