Sunday, May 16, 2010

Well... it's over.

Not that there really was anything.

I talked to Isaac. Basically: I want more, he doesn't want to get too attached before he leaves.

I guess I'll cry it all out today and start a new week tomorrow.


  1. Start the new week off fresh and purged. More opportunities will come along.

  2. have confidence in sunshine, have confidence in rain, have confidence that spring will come again

    yes, i just edited the lyrics from the song "i have confidence" in the sound of music lol i thought it was fitting

  3. What on earth is going on here, Matt?? I checked back @ your blog, after semi giving up... I mean, you post, like, a month apart, and never respond to my supportive comments, and now, you say that noone cares?? Come on!! I used to stop by, all the time, and try to support your blog, but, I'll tell you, I felt ignored... Maybe your crisis in confidence is self inflicted!! I hope you don't treat the friends in your life so nonchalantly... Yeah, I've been concerned, but, I felt like you weren't interested in my comments, after a while, what, with all the deafening silence...

    Look, I DO care!! I don't follow that many blogs... I stop by the ones that are a curiosity and comment on the ones that really matter to me... the ones that touch my heart... Yours was one of the latter, but, I started to feel like I was being taken for granted, so I kind of stopped visiting. Honestly, I was surprised to see a post today, and then, to read that suddenly you were prolific again!! hmmm...

    Now that I got that out of my system... lol... I'm very sorry to read that you and Isaac couldn't work things out, but, it seemed to be a difficult problem, at best, from the beginning! So, I guess, I'm not surprised... I've lost relationships the same way- life can be cruel, sometimes!! But, steel yourself, kid!! You are young, and have SO much good ahead of you, the crying is, well, just unfitting self pity... I'd love to be 19 again, in some ways... Get off the couch, and go outside- the park, the bookstore, the mall ... (do they have malls in Paris? lol) Your lover awaits you, but, he's not going to hang out alone, forever!! luv, tman<3

  4. I really need to read the rest of your blog. You seem really interesting. I know this has nothing to do with this particular post, but I love your profile description: "life long learner, and knowledgeable about nothing save my ignorance of the world". I am almost certain that I have spoken these exact words in the past.

    Related to this post: I'm sorry it didn't work out. Can I end with some quip of better to have love and lost rather than never loved... blah blah. I don't know that I actually believe that nor do I know enough about your relationship to say if that would even be fitting.

    Anyways-- I'm going to have to go back and read your past. I think I'll like you Mr Matt :-)

    Much Love,

  5. Anon- yup.

    Andrew- I'll be honest, i'm really not too familiar with the sound of music, but i usually think along those very lines.

    tman- I'm responding now eh? Good 'nuff. Sorry if I get caught up in my own issues and don't really have the resolve to respond to comments (you should be aware I have a spotty history with doing so in the past as it is). I'm not trying to drive you away, I just often don't have much to say in the heat of the moment. I suppose a simple thanks would suffice though... Anyway, what's all this about Paris!? It's a lovely city but I haven't been there in years (and I was only there for 2 days...). Also, I'll have you know I live a fairly active life, and spent most of my time away from the couch!

    Steve- Good luck! As for my profile description, haha yeah, us thinkers gotta stay together I guess. And I think I should probably do the same with your blog (if I ever can find the time...) and thank you! :D